Cancer-versary

September 1st was my 5 year "cancer-versary". Five years ago I found out I had Melanoma. In some ways, it feels like it was yesterday. In others, feels like a lifetime ago. % years out, I can tell you that the fear does lessen, but I don't think it ever goes away. With every new spot or bump there is always the slight fear that it might be another melanoma. And when checkup time comes around, always the fear its going to show up in the bloodwork or xray, what if they didn't get all of it during the surgery? And i'm probably going to always have that slight fear. I've read the internet stories and statistics about melanoma (even though mom told me not to), I know the odds. But I WILL NOT let Melanoma control my life! As I pack for a weekend trip to the beach (which I love and will not give up to my dying day) I throw extra sunscreen and a hat in my bag and look forward to my vacation. Fear of melanoma is not going to stop me from living. "What's meant to be will be"