It's time for my 6 month check-up and lab tests. Time for the worry and paranoia to set in. Are the lab tests going to be clear? Are there any suspicious looking spots on my back that i didn't see? Am I OK for the next 6 months?
Thoughts of recurrence never totally leave my mind, but they always seems to be at the forefront every time a check-up rolls around.
I think part of my problem is that my melanoma never looked like a typical melanoma. It was round, symmetrical, all one color--basically it just looked like a giant pimple, which is probably my biggest worry. When does a pimple stop being a pimple? Are those little red dots just pimples, or are they tiny melanomas preparing for attack? How can I be really sure they are nothing without running to the doctor every time I see a new spot. i don't have the time or money to do that. How can I be sure when the first one seemed perfectly safe until it started bleeding? Or maybe I'm just paranoid...
A blog about my battle with melanoma, other information about health care in the United States, and some random musings about life and working in Northeast PA.
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