Lying

This whole thing has made me realize what a good liar I am. Everyone keeps asking me how I am, and my standard response is fine. I don't know if I just don't want thwm to pity me or something, but if I told everyone the truth, how scared I am, how worried I am, and about all of the thoughts going through my head they would either want me committed or would look at me like I was sick. I'm not sure who I am trying to protect more, me or them. I think part of it may be that I just want them to treat me differently, I want them to see Jenn, not Jenn who has melanoma.